I’m so alone.. I have chills.. Goose bumps. I just feel so hurt. So sad. So afraid that I won’t make it but I have to. I have to make it for myself. Not for anyone else, but for myself. I need to be HAPPY. Me. If I don’t make it I will die. That’s how it feels.. I have to get out of here. Get away from here and find my happiness, my hope, my dreams. Myself. Things don’t have to be so hard. That’s one thing I know. No one should ever feel unloved. No one. I can’t remove myself from your life. I can’t erase your choices. I can’t change you and replace you with someone new. I have no control over you, the situation and your position in my life. I do not. Not at this moment and time. But I will. You will not make me. You will not dictate my life and my choices. You will not dictate my success. You will not dictate my happiness. Your personal relationships with your men may be what you hold most important and most valuable, but that is not me. That is not for me. Your love should feel unconditional. But I don’t feel anything from you. Nothing except sorrow. That’s what I feel for you and from you. Many people would give anything to have what you have. A family. Loved ones, descendants, who look not only to make themselves happy, but you as well. I pray that I make it. I pray that I make myself happy, no longer worrying about your happiness. You have not even considered mine. I am tired. I am sad. I am hurt. There is no connection between us. There is no care. No love. How much I cry, and give my energy to your actions and the way you make me feel. I may as well be you. So much of your choices affect me. And they shouldn’t. Because my life, and my happiness does not affect you.. It does not concern you. #NoMoreWords. Maybe tears.. #NotButterflyingBlossomingOrBlooming.. Just Crying ☔️2:24 A.M. Wednesday, August 20.
12:43 AM July 31, 2014 Thursday Goodnight for tonight. I haven’t been going to bed until about 4:00 AM lately, but I won’t be posting anymore for tonight, so goodnight. 💙 #Love #2dots Butterfyling.. Blossoming.. Blooming.. 12:47 AM
My noticing of how much I #THINK about #different things. My realization on how much I day #dream and #imagine, and make up dreams and #scenes in my head. How much I #cry because sometimes I feel like things are so #tough, when they don’t have to be. Keke Palmer’s sharing of her own thoughts and feelings on her #twitter, #Instagram, and her new talk #show #JustKeke also played a part too. I noticed that I connected with a lot of the things she would #speak about and post, and she made me realize that I too can share my feelings. I too can make my #voice #heard, with hopes of bettering those who are interested. I’m #ready to #change my life, and I’d like to share my #past #present and #future thoughts along the way.. 💙 #2dotsalways #Love #BUTTERFLYING.. 🐛🐛🌱🌿 🍃🌷🌹🌻 #BLOSSOMING.. #BLOOMING..
11:41 PM July 30, 2014 Wednesday
Hi…… My name is #Christina Glenn. For a while, I’ve been thinking about #beginning my own #blog. Writing my own #personal thoughts, and perhaps #sharing it with the #world.. I guess tonight’s the night I start. I’m not sure why exactly I feel I should share my #feelings with the world, as if people would care, and especially since people can be so harsh and inconsiderate these days.. Maybe my feelings will #reach out to someone. Maybe #someone can #connect with them. My #inner most thoughts. #My #heart. Or maybe someone else can #teach me something.. I have so much I want to share, and it’ll be amazing if I could #change someone’s #life.. For the #better. I’ll be sharing (of course), my personal feelings, my #happiness, my #sadness, my #knowledge, my #thoughts and #perception on certain situations, and whatever else I #feel is important enough to share with the #world.